Some Not So Good News....

Here is a little back story on all of this. Since I can remember I have had HORRID periods. I am talking I would stay up all night and cry and nothing would help. I remember missing a ton of school because of these cramps I would get. I went to dr after dr and no one could ever tell me anything. They told me there was nothing wrong and that I was fine. Well come to find out that isn't the case. There is and has been something wrong for years now. It's name, endomitriosis. In June of 2010 I had horrible cramps. It was so bad I felt as if I needed an over the counter epidural to subside the pain because NOTHING was working. I remember trying to cook dinner that same night and I couldn't stand, I didn't want to eat, and I cried for hours before finally giving in and going to the ER thinking it could be a pregnancy gone wrong. The ER did tests and once again, nothing is wrong. I went in to see my midwife at least 5 or 6 times and they told me the same thing, nothing is wrong. It seemed like in the months following it just got worse and worse. In January we were supposed to go to a birthday dinner with my grandma for my 20th birthday. I was hurting really bad that day. For those that know me, I am not one to go out to dinner at a nice place in sweats, but I couldn't change because the pain was SO bad. I struggled through eating dinner and it seemed like it was just being drug out. Finally we left to go home. I crawled in bed with my heating pad and cried. I called the midwife and they suggested I see an OB and see if he could get to the bottom of it. I called his office and set an appointment for March. I went in and they did a sono and it revealed that I had a fibroid that was 2cm. He told me he wanted to monitior me for 6 months and see what happened in that time frame. The pain got worse and worse. We tried birth control pills and they weren't working. I was on whits end. When Bryon and I got together I decided to go on depo because I really do not want another baby right now. Maybe in the future, but DEFANITLY not right now. The depo seemed to help with the pain a little. I bled for weeks on end though which is not a good thing. I went back in to the dr on Wednesday and he thought it might be something other than the fibriod causing all the pain Im having. He scheduled me for a sono on Thursday and then a consult with him on Friday. I did the sono and by the end of the day I was in so much pain I was crying. I went to the consult yesterday morning and talked to him. There are 3 new fibroids, but he still doesn't think that is what's causing all my pain. We discussed treatment options for me and decided that the best option is surgery. They are going to go in and burn off any scar tissue caused by the endometriosis. We think that should fix the pain. Im praying it fixes it. Because of where one of the fibroids is at, if we remove them I would have to have a c-section with my next child and I am not willing to do that. I know that each person has there own opinion on that subject, but unless my child is in grave danger of dying I will not have a c-section. Period. End of discussion. Call me stubborn, but look who my parents were. If it comes right down to it I would rather try and manage it with perscription pain meds until I decide to have another baby and then just deal with it. Surgery scares the hell out of me and I refuse to do this again. I had already decided when I was pregnant with Brian that if I had to have a c-section I wanted to be asleep. I didn't want to see or feel anything. Ok, Im going to stop before I have an anexity freak out yet again.